But because I have a self destructive mind set, I'm constantly trying. Trying to work, trying to find better work, trying to write, trying to write better, and trying to get ahead. I don't
understand how some people are just THAT good at having life easy. Or at least, easier.
I wish I had a way to go to college and not have to work. Or have someone else bring in all the money, so I can make an honest attempt at writing and making a semi-okay living. Hell, I'd rather make the same amount I make now, and write. I could make $200 less and still write. I like it tons better.
And that's where the problem lays. There isn't that opportunity to stay at home, or write for $200 less or equal to current pay. There isn't the option for me going to school while I'z Gotz Billz To Pay, and my financial stability is far more important to me than my education is. At least until I can find a way to do it.
I have excellent credit and it's taken a lot of careful work to get there. I don't miss payments, I send my payments before they're do so they aren't even late. I even send more than what's due. EVERY TIME. And I'm an awesome spender. You have to spend money to pay it back and earn the credit. Good credit is still better than no credit. And I know that Excellent is better than good.
Anyway, I'm exhausted, it's 11:30 p.m. and although I don't have
to go to my paying job, I am doing a lot of work on my non-paying-but-hopefully-will-give-me-money-soon job. Which is going good by the way. I'm a little behind schedule, but considering the amount of content I've added, I say it's pretty good. I can't wait to read through it like it's another author's story. But that's hard. Because I can't seem to finish finding ways to fix things or make them better.
Alrighty Mighty Tighty Whitey... G-night, and sleep tight, and don't forget my birthday is in two days.. almost... :)-
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