This weekend

So... I didn't accomplish what I wanted to with photos. I'm kind of bummed about it. But I promise I didn't just sit there and do nothing. We purchased our bed stuff :D. You can see that update next Sunday on http://deitering.blogspot.com/ (10/3/10). It's our 3 week project. we can't wait for it to be over!

Anyway.. we lost our softball game again yesterday. bummer too. We all played pretty good, but the women on the opposite team actually hit it out of infield... something I've barely done. So there was a lot of play out there. And when you play with a co-ed team on the lowest rec level... that's where you put the girls who haven't been playing as long (yes, I've played right field, center field, and rover--in between outfield and infield) or don't handle the pressure as well. Which would be me :D.

Except for this game! I got to play 2nd base! Not sure why they put me there to begin with, but..... they did! And I didn't play..... well, or horrible really. lol. The first up to bat, hit it pretty good, so when they threw it to me because he was running to second... he screamed at me (to mess me up)... THEN he freaking jumped on me (I was crouched to get the ball because the threw it low. I mean... this is the lowest freaking league!!! why would you push someone down. Stupid.. BUT! the greatest part is that he over-ran the base, didn't go back and touch the base before he ran to third (since I missed the ball because he jumped on me)... then he thought that he was a cool guy, ran to third and tried to run home... buuuut.. I tossed it to our pitcher who was covering second while I went to get the ball (he knows the rules apparently) and we got him out... :D :D :D. YEAH! eff you em effer!

So... other than that. I got thrown the ball twice more that game. One was off, so I had to step off base and missed it. Craig was behind me to get it though :). And then another one... I totally caught it like a champ :D. but the guy was already on my base... sooo I didn't doo much good. But since there wasn't much for me to do, I guess that makes sense. I REALLY want to play there again. I liked being in the mix, though it was a big outfield game. But that would mean that I would be snubbing my friend who's been playing there since we started (I think we've played 4 games so far). So I would like to play there... but not at the expense of her being sadface. But Craig and I are going to practice more this week. Just with, quick stuff. catch and release. feel the pressure. try to feel the pressure. I wish the whole team would practice once during the week so we can feel it out together!

Today is going to be 101 degrees!! I can't believe I ever was excited for it to be 65 degrees (in Seattle.. hahaha).

We're planning our Disney trip too!! We need to buy our plane tickets. :D BUT... we need to wait because we just spent a million dollars on our new bedroom. Which looks AMAZING! :D

Okay! Finishing pictures VERY VERY soon!!!!! VERY SOON! Or I'll cry. I need to work on the Intel softball tournament pictures. Like immediately.

really??

Just want to slap this person...

she was joking around with some other people in the office and somehow she thought it would be funny to say: "oh not my husband, he's fat and ugly, has no job..." etc etc.. it goes on but I get so angry about it.

If I wasn't on the phone in a meeting with my boss, I would have said "Really?? The way you talk about him, no wonder why he doesn't try to get a job to give you a better life."

ugh. what a miserable human being.

My wish is that he gets an awesome job and divorces her to marry some hot young thing that will take care of him and praise him for the good he's doing.

It's not like she's a looker either. Her voice makes me cringe when she talks.

Why people get married and having kids when they just end up talking down about their spouse like they would talk about their worst enemy. Sometimes they treat their worst enemy better than their spouse. Just gross.

one thing to know about me

my brain is made up of many different compartments. Sure, so is every one's I suppose. But I use mine that way. I can be extremely sad about one thing while being thrilled of another. Or pumped to do something... and yet, really depressed by it.

Have I confused you yet?

In other words... This morning, I was super pumped. Thinking... I can do this! I can do this! I want to be a photographer... so just... be one! get out there, get some experience, try to do an assistant job whether it pays crap or not at all. It'll be one of the best things I can do for myself.

I get home, apply for the general, no creativity stuff and try to contact some local freelance photographers I actually like to see if they need someone like me. Spunky, intelligent, hard working, diligent and personable. I haven't heard anything back, so I'm upset about that...

But while I'm extremely pumped about getting my foot in some one's photography door, I'm extremely depressed. I look at all the good things in my life: a freaking awesome partner, difficult kitties, the ability to do what we do and not worry about it, planning for Harry Potter World (and other things, but that's my main focus).... and those things make me happy. Meanwhile, I'm saddened at different situations. So I'm happy and depressed.

Makes sense huh? Well.. no, it really doesn't. Because I'm just depressed about one thing, not my whole life. Yeah, sometimes I sit there and curse the Greek Gods for not dealing me a better hand, but really??? It wasn't so bad for them to do anything about it. And I know more than most, that I have to take whatever I want, or do whatever I have to in order to get what I want... It's just making me a Debby-Downer.

Sorry.. I'm just upset. I came home, tried to do all this stuff and I think.. to what end? Where will this get me? Sitting in this same position as I am now? Hoping that I'll win that lucky ticket. That I'll be the one chosen to pursue something I love doing. I think the toughest part is not trying to involve Craig. He's got enough on his plate with his work that he doesn't need my stupid feelings and blubber to deal with too.

Plus, like all else, it will pass. Then I'll do this again in about.. ohhh 30 days?

i hope

So I've been thinking about a change. Which can't happen until I secure the change. Otherwise, Craig will be ticked!

I want to try working for a photography studio. The only problem? There's not very many studio studios. Just great photographers. I guess I could still do it... but I want to help someone run their business, learn the skills, and gain experience in something I actually want to do. It won't pay as much as I get now... but it'll pay more in the long run.

Sidenote... the other day, Craig said something that made me laugh. He said something like: "if you stop working, we'll lose 1/3 of our income".. hahahahahaha. I guess it's just funny because I only make 1/3rd of what we have.. not half. Not that it's really unbelievable... but just funny... k... i guess it's an inward sidenote :D.

Alright... wish me luck!

la la la la

so! I have a new blog. This is specifically for the Craig and Amber Deitering family. I'm keeping this one because I need a place to... well... bitch.. and the Deitering blog isn't where I want that.

kk!

http://deitering.blogspot.com/

Anyway... I put up a couple posts already there, outlining our start (at least as a legal family).. and then about our 1st week :D

Don't worry, I'll try to keep it un-dorky.
haha... it won't be cheasy! that's for sure :D

I'm in the middle of vows for Justin and Saranade's wedding. I took way too many pictures I think. I want to have them DONE this week. So I can start putting together their... fun stuff :D. And then send them the disc and the "fun stuff". Hopefully it'll all be together by her birthday... October 2nd?

Oo OO!! we FINALLY get to start planning for our trip to Harry Potter World... or.. really: Walt Disney World and Universal Studios Orlando.

all weekend I was looking at houses for my mom (hopefully Julie-son and family) and I to rent for a week in February. I was also looking at airfare... and park tickets. i'm going to tell Craig to expect $3000 ish... to spend. That way, if I make it lots lots lots (hopefully) less, than we'd be able to buyyyyyy stuff :D hahaha. That's how I roll!

I'm so excited for that trip.

Okay, gotta start working.. buh-bye now!

3 days

It's funny... I keep getting weird/random comments leading up to the wedding... the closer we get, the more I get them. I think Craig gets them too... but only from his parents.

Comments like: "Are you nervous?", "Are you ready?"...

Normal questions. Makes sense. But I still think it's funny. Because... no, I'm not nervous. If I were to be nervous, it'd be because EVERYONE will be looking at me... I don't mind attention... but positive attention makes me uncomfortable. I know, it's weird, but very true...

Am I ready??? heck no. BUT!! I've had this motto for about 2 weeks now "If it's not done now, It isn't getting done." then I have the sub-thought "or at least until my mom gets here" lol.

Which is today!!! She'll be there in about an hour! and they'll be at our house. With Craig. I have work... and some other things to take care of before I can get home. Then we get to go get some nummmmmmmmy food at Chicago Fire :). And shop! I saw a dress last night with a friend that I want to buy. Well... a couple! But definitely 1. That's pretty expensive... but I heart it. it's really freaking cute... k..

now i'm done wasting time...